You think its like this but really its like this

Friends only!!!

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 07:27:36 GMT

My journal is now friends only. If you want to read it please leave a comment.

XOXO

Tue, 30 May 2006 17:50:48 GMT

Finally a happy thought

Fri, 26 May 2006 19:32:00 GMT

James will be home tomorrow and Dylan will be home tomorrow night. I'm so excited!!!!!!!

quicky

Wed, 24 May 2006 06:17:34 GMT

dylan comes the 27th. I could of swore he was coming the 30th. Aggh... so that means it was to late to change my work schedule in time, so I'm working when he flys in. Luckily James comes in earlier that day from Seattle and is available to pick him up. In the next few days I hope to move as much little shit into our new place that Jwest will allow. I also have tons of chores I should be doing right now, cleaning blah. God I hate moving.

Things that happened today
*someone got stabed in the park next to my house, I believe it was drug related
*I learned how to do a bunch of pastry chef stuff
*possible new job opening that I really really really want might be opening. Slim chance.
*Ate Ethiopian food for lunch, second time I've had it really good! The first time I think it was a culture shock, or so different. This time I was with people who knew allot about the food.

Sat, 20 May 2006 02:55:55 GMT

I didn't go to work today. Well I went, then I left after 40 minutes. I couldn't do it. I hate everything. I feel like I really dont have anyone to talk to about this that could even slightly understand how I feel. I barely know how I feel. I finally swollowed my pride and got my brother Scott's cell number. We talked and told each other that we loved each other (we haven't talked in over a year). I think were the only ones with our heads on properly. We dont know what to do or who to turn to. I feel weird in this empty house. James keeps calling and he sounds so excited about being in Seattle. I didn't want to make him feel bad about whats going on. An old friend said she would call and she never did. I didn't expect her to, but I know in the back of my head I really wanted her to. I guess we are all changing and moving on. I feel like thats ok but I thought we could do it together.

Quick update

Sun, 14 May 2006 19:18:40 GMT

Dylan comes May 30th
James got a job doing sound for Warped tour and will be gone all summer
My mom comes at the end of dylan's visit July 5th-11th
Hate and love my new job
Making new friends
losing my mind and staying home to figure things out (PMS who knows?)
got some food poisoning and it lasted for three days (I will not be eatting sushi with seafood or baked potatoes ever again)
Started eatting more raw foods and even making stuff at home I lasted three straight days with out regular sugar, coffee, cooked foods or soy based products
Jwest is moving out of our apartment building and were moving into his bigger apartment
losing touch with old friends
got to hang out on a roof top in san francisco while my friend got a burger tattooed on his foot in one of the apartments below. It was amazing and the city is fucking beautiful.
Miss New Orleans
180 pounds, SHIT.

ella in her new jacket

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 00:18:16 GMT

Reno,NV

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 00:15:03 GMT

these are alot of pictures from our trip to reno to see alkaline trio. We drove through Donner's Pass (http://www.vw.vccs.edu/vwhansd/HIS121/Donner.html) and went to Circus-Circus for some gambling.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 13:22:55 GMT

So I got a supervisor job that I really wanted.
I dont really have money for dylans ticket right now, and it sucks, cause I said I could get it this week.

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 01:19:22 GMT

I just had an amazing drum lesson. I kept the beat going over a minute a few times. I'm enjoying it so much that I secretly (to myself) call myself a drummer. Its so awesome. And In two hours I will be (finally!!!) dinning at Millennium Restaurant. I cant wait!!!

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 01:38:02 GMT

So I've been thinking about this job thats been posted at work and finally decided to go ahead and try to interview for it. What the heck. I either get it or I don't. Its weird having to think that I could be a supervisor. But I think I would be good at it. Its for the night shift which isn't as busy as the morning shift. Well, we shall see. I just got back from having dinner with a girl thats friends with Bryan/jwest/james. It was good. I felt awkward as hell, but shes really nice. Sometimes I dont even want to bother. I hate the beginning. I just want to get to the good part, not feeling awkward, feeling like you know the person/comfortable and sharing stories and whatnot. But I'm trying to not be such a loner. Although I like being a loner alot. Thats it.

coaltrane sleeping in the tub

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 01:11:31 GMT

Ella bathing

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 23:48:24 GMT

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 02:54:56 GMT

This week was fucking aweful. Its raining alot. Although yesterday was nice and the bulk of today. James is out of town and I've been doing tons of girly things to cheer myself up. Monday I went to Haight street with two work friends. I had a really good time. Tuesday was spent at work, then watching "mean girls" with a real live mean girl;) and then yesterday was spent shopping with Marina. Today I thought I had a drum lesson, but I guess not. I spent the day watching movies (pride and predjudice, E.S.O.T.S.M, and Love actually). I dont know why I watch these movies, b/c it just depresses me. Anyway heres some pics enjoy.

pets

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 02:48:57 GMT

your should be hated here by now

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:49:01 GMT

Nothing like a little bit of carissa's wierd on a dark and gloomy day

"everything no one knows
you should be hated here by now
this was the prettiest lie that i told tonight
it's been the prettiest lie that i told all year
the unmade bed inside the room
where i don't feel comfortable at all
where blankets stare at me for hours
and i stare right back so self righteously

(it could be now
and i don't feel proud
i'm so sorry now
i'm sorry now)

and it all comes down to composure that's been lost
when it all comes down to composure that's been lost"

hey! Lets get drunk in Napa!

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 16:17:58 GMT

v day dinner

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 19:15:09 GMT

I have been not eatting vegan or vegetarian (shrimp) for a few weeks. I cant explain why but now I remember why I went vegan. I feel so icky. But the dinner was good and James cooked the whole thing as a surprise!

winchester mystery house

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 04:45:34 GMT

The Woods

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 22:37:18 GMT

Drums I'm interested in

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 13:15:14 GMT

http://www.gretschdrums.com/?fa=series&sid=304

No Romantic V-day vegan dinner for me

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 22:55:36 GMT

Attention "last minute romantics": we are fully booked for Valentine's Day...but your not alone and we thought about you. We will passionately pamper you and your date any night of the month. Do let us know in advance and we will be sure your dining companion knows that you truly tried.
http://www.millenniumrestaurant.com

Out in the city with Marina

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 00:32:02 GMT

they just hang out here to sunbath from the bay (not captured, no one owns them, the are like pidgeons here) So before you jump on yr soapbox, just enjoy the random-ness of this photo.

stairs at coit tower.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 03:07:18 GMT

Finally called Marina. Got a cell phone. Went to holiday party. Drank way to much. Got a real amp (A VOX). Saw terrible movie (Matchpoint) with Mr. West. Have a drum lesson with the drummer for Meatbeat Manifesto.

~MAC Make-up for post holiday party~

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 03:00:18 GMT

Fake lashes rule

No I have not brushed my hair